Haywired

Some shrink just wrote an article I feel compelled to troll
He says I suffer “sympathetic audience control”
And I have such an extreme case it stops MY brane from working
It just reacts to sympathetic things that get it perking
When I encounter anyone expressing sympathy
Long after they are gone their feedback keeps on feeding ME.

The shrink thinks everything I do is based on what I hear
From those I interact with. If for instance they ALL cheer
They totally control ME! MY Great rally crowds he’s found
I don’t control at all, it is the other way around
If on the other hand I think MY audience hates ME
I lash out and keep right on lashing angry as can be.

I am caught in a feedback loop that in ME’s gone haywire
MY audience directs the way ALL of MY thoughts transpire
MY roller-coaster mind works in a very short timeframe
Reflecting the love people show ME, hate to those who blame
And MY brane can’t look back or forward, it’s stuck in the now
Reacting only to each audience through which I plow.

MY audience can be a crowd or someone I don’t know
MY brane immediately identifies as friend or foe
My views and thoughts shift with each audience I see or hear
And I shift views repeatedly based on each boo or cheer
I cannot look back or ahead, I can only respond
That’s why I deny things I just did before very long.

The bottom line is MY thinking’s extremely limited
I cannot look behind and also cannot look ahead
And I can’t hold any believe in anything for long
Each audience I encounter brings MY next beliefs on
No principles direct MY thoughts, just gusts of wind that blow
Across MY empty brane each time I meet a friend or foe.

30 July 2018